Listen

Quiet here again.  The holiday break is over and J has gone back to work and S back to school.   The holidays were wonderful, hectic, frustrating and crazy all at the same time.  It was nice to have an extra set of hands around.  I didn’t get to do much of what I wanted seeing as when L was napping I was still doing things around the home and playing with S but I snuck in a few moments to myself or spending some time with S alone.

I’m not making any resolutions this year.  I rarely keep them anyway.  I do want to focus on making this year better than last though.  Last year was not the best year for me.  Coping with a newborn and all that comes with it is not easy for me.  Couple that with fighting at least 90% of the time with J was not pleasant either.

But this year I would like to focus more on me.

• Continue eating healthy.  I’m still following the 5 for 15 diet I did back in November.  I managed to lose 10lbs that way and I am not struggling as much to stay away from sugar.  I rarely do now.  The odd chocolate will find its way but for the most part its easy.
• I will try to grab a shower every day.  Even if I’m not going out.   Changing out of pjs too will help.  Washing my face before bed, removing makeup and moisturizing also.  I bought J a moisturizer from Kiehls ”Facial Fuel” and although its for men, I tried it on me and it is amazing.  My skin has never felt softer.
• Read more.  This is fairly easy for me.  As long as I’m not suckered into Twitter late at night.
• Get out for walks again once spring arrives, one day.
• Try to get out once a month for a movie.  A blogging friend moved into the area last summer and she goes quite often so I’ll try to join her as much as I can.  It is hard though as when J gets home from work its a mad scramble to get dinner ready, homework done, and a lot of times J is tired too.  But I think once a month may be feasible.
• Enjoy the last 9 months with L before I return to work.  I am lucky enough that my job is held for me if I want to take unpaid leave after my mat leave ends.  My mat leave ended in December so I’m now on unpaid leave until roughly September.  It’s a huge struggle financially but I cannot fathom putting L in daycare at this age.   As much as I look at the clock each day and wish for naptimes I will make an effort to enjoy these months with him.
• I will focus on living each day at a time and not think too far ahead.

So those are a few of my goals for this year.  To focus on me and listen to what my head and heart are telling me.  To trust my instincts and to live for me.

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