I was standing in the kitchen at the sink washing dishes and thinking. I came to the realization that the one thing I’m always afraid of doing is rocking the boat. When I was married I never wanted to rock the boat because I never wanted to argue. I hated arguing. Still do. And really who does anyway? But even know in my new relationship I’ve realized I don’t want to rock the boat either. That doesn’t mean that I’m being a puppet and agreeing with everything but it does mean that sometimes there are things I want to question or talk about and I don’t because I don’t want to argue for fear of him walking away. Crazy huh? Here’s an example; he and I share most of the household expenses. We don’t have a joint bank account. I have mine and he has his. He’s seen my online banking page and knows pretty much what little investments I have. I have a rough idea of his finances but I’ve never actually seen his online banking page. The few times I’ve asked him to see it he says either “you know everything I have” or “I don’t have my wallet handy to sign on to the page but I’ll do it later.” And the later never comes. Most of the time I let it go. Last night I asked again and he asked me if I didn’t trust him. I do but I’m just curious. Is that wrong? If any of you reading this have individual bank accounts are you privy to your partner’s bank accounts? Do you care? Or am I being too nosy??